Awakening

The woman you loved might have

Seemed strong

But she was tearing at the seams darling

Fraying at the edges

Barely anything left

Worn out

I wanted to be so compelling

You couldn't resist

Talking to me

Wanting to spend time

But no one is or should be constantly engaging

A ce faire violence

A force d'effort en vain

You get to be boring

From time to time

And just exist

Not always aiming to entertain

Mundane

Sometimes the desire creeps up again

To mold myself on a different design

I guess I've just run out of ideas

To keep your interest dear

And it's getting to me

The right person

Will find endless ways of being interested

And staying curious

I wish I were the kind of partner

Who's got so much self-confidence

And a deep-seated awareness of her own worth

That she doesn't feel the need to please people

And bend over backward for anyone else

That even when she is unkind

She's not only forgiven

But just desired that much more

Being amenable and

Being a people pleaser

Are not the same things?

Just because my brand of self-confidence

Isn't overly loud or brash

Doesn't mean it isn't as unshakeable

My influence is more subtle

It's slow and steady

Stealthy

You won't expect to miss me

Je ne suis pas limpide

I have a right to be unruly

With my knotted feelings

And convoluted personality

Easily embarrassed and sheepish

I overcomplicate a simple social interaction

Get lost in my own thoughts

The intricate and circuitous nature

of this ornate courtship

this elaborate and winding dance

Of two people coming together

Has slipped my grasp

We are both passengers in each other's lives

We've been fortunate to have shared a moment along the way

It's been intoxicating and exciting seeing me through you

Mais je me suis suffisament amusé

D'avoir mis sur pied tant de performances

Et interpreter un nombre incalculable de personages differents

For your peace of mind

Or your viewing pleasure

Toutes les versions de moi envisageables et envisagées

Sont fatigués

D'avoir si souvent du se battre contre tes notions préconcues

Tes projections non sollicités

Instead of building a space where our mutual imperfections

Could land softly and laugh at each other

Before helping each other up

And making each other better