Small

Being addressed as a little girl was so infantilizing

I felt like a child that could never grow up

Reductive of my entirety

Pint sized

Pipsqueak

All of my organs born too small

To function properly

I don't want to be a "little girl" anymore

(Not much to do being little

Or a girl)

Not taking me seriously

Not taking my rage seriously

It's funny

Your so cute when you get angry

fait gaffe si ça continue je vais tout faire peter

Anyone can be made to feel small

How my voice shrinks

My mind goes elsewhere

Feel the impulse to conform to this image of the

small fragile vulnerable sweet thing

that's maybe a part of me

if I'm speaking honestly

might have used that projected vulnerability

to my advantage

once or twice

but it's not all I am and wanna be

So fuck that

Y'en a marre

Ma petite

Mais c'est affectif

In that patronizing tone

Don't be so difficult

Invalidate a simple request for mutual respect

Size and influence is relative

And not a direct relationship of cause and effect

so stop projecting so much onto me

As much as my perceived cuteness can draw you in

And make you trust me

It's got sharp edges to it

I sometimes wonder

if I've too full on the inside for such a small vessel

slowly turning claustrophobic

I became scared I'd

Spill-over and through my tiny container

leaving me wrinkled-out and empty

To constraining so I sang for my voice to amplify my sound

Found ways to expand myself in my mind

So I wouldn't explode

Pushed my organs aside

Creating this big, imposing, high-ceilinged space inside me

Allowing air to breathe in

this sudden expansive area becoming the empty receptacle

To reverberate the vibrations and better project my melody

You don't like my genuine laughs

Call them shrill shrieks?

I'll scream so fucking high pitched

It will

Break down that goddamned glass wall

And all you'll be left with

Are the sharp pieces

The sound of my glee

Drawing blood

Shattered pieces of a world tailored to you

Invincible

Unbeatable

You worked so hard to make unbreakable

Like a banshee who heralds a death in the family

My high-pitched howl of delight will pierce your eardrums

and remind your power of its mortality

will scream its way through your carefully established

consistently reinforced structures

the ringing sound moving in concentric circles and expanding

making sure the echo of my voice lives on

finding strength in my morphology

a condensed pithy remark

une pique bien ciblé

concentre la douleur impartie

pour un maximum d'impact

Avec une petite insulte

Glissé inaperçu

Je viens de t'abattre

En toute impunité

Et insouciance

Le sourire aux lèvres

Et la conscience légère

A particularly irritating ache

too minute too catch

It will show you that little booties matter

and that small remains mighty

otherwise how could the infinitesimally big

so easily be contained in the infinitesimally small

ponder on that

as I'll evade your influence

dancing my heart out

Shaking my ass off

You ain't ready for my

Iddy biddy body